HELP ASAP

GUYS I HAVE TO TAKE A DRUG TEST TOMORROW.. any ideas how to pass? fuck 😦

snow

i do realize that i’ve been absent for the entire month of october. apologies 🙂

I slept 20 of the last 24 hours. I’ve been in such a fog.

my life is all over the place right now. I have a job interview tomorrow. I’ve spent the last two weeks in a pile of snow. a very expensive pile of snow. I have -$185 dollars in the bank, a maxed out credit card, and yet every cent i scrounge up is out of my pocket as fast as it came in.

a need to get out. i know i do. before its too late. but this eating disorder just feeds to my drugs. the drugs make me satisfied. they don’t make me hungry. they give me life. personality. it’s not at the point where i’ll say i need it. but it’s at the point where ill cancel all my plans because i want to do it so badly. if i don’t, then i feel like its an opportunity missed.

i realized this the day after i blew half an eight ball and slept through work.

im messing up right now. im totally messing up. i need a reset. something to wipe this all away. something to start over. to make it right.